I wanted to be real and tell you that for the past few days I’ve been struggling. It’s impossible to be positive and happy all the time especially for someone like me. I wonder about the choices I’ve made and the fact that they have gotten me to where I am right now and in some respects I’m not happy about that. I’m not where I want to be in most aspects of my life. There are only two things I have that I love and that is my family and my job. I know that some people would say that’s more than some people have but everyone has their own measuring stick as to what they think makes them successful. I try and I try to look at the good things. I write in my gratitude journal and that is a big help most of the time. I would definitely recommend it. It takes a second just to write five quick things you are grateful everyday. It would be wrong of me to say that it works all the time because it isn’t working for me right now. But it will work in time because it always does eventually.
Did you ever think that you should be farther along than you are or that life really isn’t fair. I know it’s cliche but sometimes life really does suck. I’ve been someone who followed the straight and narrow path and never veered from what I was supposed to do or was expected to do from everyone around me. I thought that would guarantee me success with my life. But I struggle financially and that really brings me down emotionally. I will probably be paying my student loans long after I’m dead. It’s a burden that you start your life with right out of college. Anyway let’s just say I have lots of worries and frustrations and the feeling of being trapped. I sometimes feel like I am at the bottom of a big hole and every time I climb up just a little I get knocked back down. It is so frustrating. I just wanted to say sometimes dark days happen and you just have to ride it out until you get to the other side of it. Tomorrow I will feel a little better and the next day even more because I never give up. Sometimes I really want to but i never do. That’s I guess the most important message for today’s post and that is to never give up. Even when the dark cloud has descended upon you and you can’t find your way out just take a deep breath think of one good thing for that day and focus on that. Today my one grateful thought was that I could see and enjoy the sunshine. It’s a little thing but it helps me. It’s like the little grain of hope that you hate because it won’t let you give up and you want to but it’s there for that reason. It’s the spark of hope, it’s that tiny pinprick of light in that dark cloud. There is always a better day ahead no matter how hard today is. So I will leave you with this thought. Be grateful for just one small thing everyday and hold onto it tight and it will lead you back out of the dark to where happiness lives in the light. I wish happiness for everybody and I will always try to find it for myself too. Some days are more successful than others but I will keep climbing.
Always keep climbing my friends.
Happiness Preferred 