I’m sorry I haven’t written during the month of June. It has been a very rough month filled with turmoil and worry. My sister was very ill and ended up in the emergency room a couple times. Then we had to go to a neurologist to find out what was going on. She was diagnosed with something that has no cure but the pain can be managed with medicine. We hope it will just go into remission and she can get relief. But this scary time has made me realize once again how important it is to be there for the person you love. It made me terrified that I could lose her and I couldn’t even go there in mind because it would be too devastating. I am instead focused on being there for her and trying to find some happy medium in this dark time. I look to things that make me happy to get through tough times when I feel like I am at the bottom of a deep dark hole and all I can see is the smallest pinprick of light. It’s that small light that keeps me going and gives me hope. It’s the small things that I can find that give me a break from the upsetting things. That’s my hope that if anyone out there that is going through dark times know that you aren’t alone and try to find one small thing that makes you happy and hold onto that tight.
I want to share the one thing that I’ve been holding on to right now that has helped me. I started a little container garden on my balcony and just seeing the plants grow has brought me joy. They are something that I can take care of and watch grow.
Small tomato growing on my plant. 
My little container garden.
I will write far more regularly and that is a promise. I wish all of you a very happy July. Enjoy your summer! Enjoy your life!
Happiness Preferred 